My name is Lance Cary. I’m a writer that lives in west Kentucky, and I’m dying. I’m 41 years old, and just four weeks ago my cardiologist in Paducah, Kentucky confirmed I had diagnostic heart failure. Hoping it wasn’t true, I saw two other cardiologists, only to find out they agreed with the diagnosis. My prognosis: five years to live, plus or minus two.
A part of me wasn’t so surprised considering I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis when I was 35. That particular diagnosis was a blessing in disguise as it related to my writing. It forced me out of the workforce which allowed me to spend a great deal of time writing and getting better at the craft.
What hurts the most is knowing I'll leave my wife and five young children behind. I know that people go through it every day, and I don’t think I deserve to live anymore than those people. It’s just the fact that dying as a young father and husband will be the most difficult thing I’ll ever have to do. I want to be there for them, and I certainly don’t want to say goodbye.
I hope to write a final screenplay that will be a sequel to my latest. I'll really miss writing, but I want to spend the rest of my years focusing wholly on my family and trying to soak up the small things that I’ve always taken for granted: the hugs, the kisses, feeling them breathe against my chest as they fall asleep on me before bedtime, their laughs, and most of all, just being in their sweet presence.
I would like nothing more than for some producers or their heads of development to read my latest. I do think it’s my best. Of course, I realize other readers may not agree. That's the nature of the business. I'm just hoping for the chance that one producer will really like it, even option it.
Getting this screenplay to the big screen would mean everything. It would prove to my children that even though life may decide to take you out or beat you down, you can fight it, at least for a time. Very often you can still get up and do something amazing. That’s what I want to leave them with. I want them to know that their dad wasn’t just multiple sclerosis, heart failure and the man that had to leave them when they needed him the most.
Thank you so much for your consideration.